Making It Happen

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I have a great deal of difficulty compartmentalising my time. It annoys me no end when men get praised as geniuses whilst all they’ve had to do is ONE THING all day long. I mean, which idiot couldn’t do that?

My time, like yours I bet, is broken up between mama and worker – home bird and work lady – parent and student. I find it hard to get traction on anything, because I need to swap around as soon as I’m started. Homeschooling kids, cooking and cleaning, trying to work and make a portfolio – it seems as soon as I’m on one track I’m being pulled on another. The only time I get anywhere is if I let one area slide – usually my stuff.

When I’m on an art roll make no mistake the house looks and smells like a byre. I day dream of being able to afford maids – or even live with people capable of picking their own crap up – of course I can’t afford a maid, and slavery is illegal, so what I really need is a wife.

I’m either in one zone or another and flipping the switch is really hard for me.

Anyone out there with any tips on making it all happen??? No ‘get your husband to help’ BS, because I’m on my own ALL THE TIME.

Totally frazzled brain now needs to iron and hoover….

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Where to begin…

If you follow me on Instagram or my Patreon page you will know that my recent online silence was born out of difficulty; my laptop died in spectacular, unfixable fashion (even though I bought a new hard drive to boot). Like I joke to people, I’m saving up to be poor (you too? Tell me about it!) and buying a new one was like planning a mission to Mars. Add to that everything I have is broken and in need of repair, a living metaphor in so many ways; my car has been off road since June; my freezer fluctuates between FREEZE ALL THE THINGS INTO A MONOLITHIC BLOCK or let’s just chill out; my fridge, which was second hand 16 years ago, needs replacing; I have bills to pay, kids to feed, kids to educate, my own cup to fill and a house that looks like someone committed aggravated burglary.

Why am I telling you all this? Well, firstly because it’s all true, and secondly, internet world can sometimes make the grass look a lot greener. Maybe if we all told the truth we’d all be happier with our lot?

So, yes, like you, I struggle. My home is small, rented and crumbling; I have rats in the garden and outside room; I have simple dreams that will never come true, and I’ve spent the last 17 years lying to myself that things will be OK, and those dreams might happen.

But if you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always got.

My simple dream was to be able to work enough from home to be able to continue to homeschool my children. I have turned myself inside out to make that a reality for as long as possible, but this year saw a lot of letting go. My children are getting older (and so am I!) and our needs are different now. Add to that I cannot make a living doing what I love from home. It’s a hard hustle.

So, I’ve shaken things up, let things go, popped some bubbles and buried some dreams. And that’s OK, because new ones have taken their place.

To raise money for a new laptop (my priority given that I can’t run a business without one) I stripped my house for anything of worth to eBay – mostly yarn and fabric, but also my spinning wheel and serger. Couldn’t quite manage to sell the sewing machine, but I will if I have to. My wardrobe was ransacked. My bookshelf obliterated. It’s looking a lot more streamlined here, and after a twinge of sadness, I love it. I got a new Patron (thank you!) and a couple people even gifted me money towards my laptop fund! And as this was happening, on the spur of the moment, I applied to go back to college to do an art A level, got an interview and was accepted onto the Foundation Diploma course instead, and am now booking open days to university! I put one foot in front of the other and see where I end up. My children will have to be schooled and I’m in the process of appealing a place for the youngest.

And just like that, one door shuts and another one opens. New compromises are made to substitute for older ones which weren’t working. For the first time since forever ago I am looking forward to something – a dream which is hopefully within reach this time – to get to university to become an Illustrator. A proper one.

I will continue to run my online business, Patreon page and blog, but now it’s with the purpose of supporting me and my children as I put myself through art school. Once major ducks line up. If ever.

Thank you for your support. I hope you’ll continue following me on my journey through art. I appreciate you so very much.

Behind the Scenes

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The second ‘Behind the Scenes’ post is up over on my Patreon site – click here – there is a flurry of making happening in chez Green Man Art – it includes glitter!

As well as $1 option for a newsletter every two weeks (and Behind the Scenes), there is also the option to watch me draw, and be the first to have access to new products before I launch to the public. If that interests you then hop on over to my Patreon Page and subscribe!.

And thank you to those who have – you have no idea how much it means to have support. Just even knowing people like what I do sometimes is the wind beneath my wings to carry on.

Have a great weekend folks!

October Things

Green Man Art

Green Man Art

Green Man Art

Hello!

How’s things? It was a bit of a busy week last week. I launched my Patreon page, and then posted my first Patreon posts – I’m still getting the hang of it, and I hope the posts will get better and better. I’m still trying to find a balance of things I share here and there.

I’m starting to feel the winter funk slide into my life… I sit at my desk and think ‘what’s the point’ which is not a great start to the working day.

But I’m keeping busy! I’ve got Christmas things ready to roll and I’m hand making some interesting bespoke items too – they’re still bits of fabric right now, but hopefully they’ll also be ready for Christmas cheer!

But, hey, we’ve still got October and November first, right? I’ll be offering a Halloween freebie sometime in the October half term week for you and your children, so keep your eyes peeled!

And I’m still persevering with Inktober so far – have you joined in? Let me know!

Talk soon –
Debbie

An Autumn Manifesto

An Autumn Manifesto

Surviving winter starts in autumn in my book. I always take a little nose-dive at this time of year, so as I sat rocking back and forth, speaking in tongues one evening, I thought I’d do that thing that brings me peace: draw. Before I knew it I was planning a little ‘autumn manifesto’ to remind me to find the beauty in this season.

With help from some instagram friends we came up with this list above (thanks to Rachelle Blondel, Jax Blunt, Slugs and Snails, Aisha Malik, Emma, Becky, @umm_aymandeensakinah, @Pootle_momma, and a couple of private users. Phew!)

I’d also like to add some practical things for the manifesto: take Vitamin D3 by the bucketload! Maybe think about getting a SAD lamp… because I’m SAD…, and plan special treats – days out and mini-breaks that get you out of dodge for a while, let you recharge and have something to look forward to.

Can you think of any others? Add them in the comments!

If you would like a copy of our manifesto then feel free to print out your own! (And if you do and have an image of it posted in your home then tag me on instagram @greenmanart!)

Inktober 2017

Green Man Art Inktober

Green Man Art Inktober

Green Man Art Inktober

Green Man Art Inktober

I decided to jump right in to Inktober drawing challenge this month! Which means the daily doodles are taking a back seat for a while. Are you also taking the challenge? Let me know. You can follow my journey on my instagram feed. Hope to see you over there!

A Full Week

Green Man Art freelance illustrator

Green Man Art freelance illustrator

Green Man Art freelance illustrator

Green Man Art freelance illustrator

Green Man Art freelance illustrator
Hi Guys,

How are you? I’m not going to lie to you, today I feel frazzled, and when I say ‘frazzled’ I really mean ‘unravelled’. Do you ever feel that way? Like some days are great, some days are doable, and then there are the days when one straw too many has hit the pile and you just stand there like a bird that has flown into a plate glass window? No? Just me then.

This week I am worried about my children and their education – last week I felt confident about it all and this week I feel like I’ve failed them again. The worry is endless. Add to that my laptop needs fixing – my main source of income tool! – and there are only moths in my purse. In fact, the moths in my purse are thugs and mug me every time I open it up.

And this week I feel like an all-round failure at life. And my car is dead. And we can’t go places. And and and…

Just straws adding to the pile.

But anyway! I’ve been working on little bits of art (I’m joking, I’ve been working NONE STOP), but because they’re all for publication (hopefully, fingers crossed) I can’t show you anything for copyright reasons. Which makes for a dull blog post. But here are some snippets.

And what have YOU been making this week? Let me know!